Well, I'm back home, and I'm feeling just amazing!
They were able to do the surgery laproscopically (there was a huge chance I was going to have to be opened right up) And I've just got 5 little incisions in me. I'm hurting, but the pain now, versus the pain before is just night and day. I can handle this pain. It's the pain of healing.
It turns out that it was a endometrial cyst, and it was adhering to everything in my lower abdomen, which my surgeon told me explained why I was in such constant pain. As she put it "Once I saw that, all your pain issues just made complete sense."
I was just in overnight, and was "sprung" the next day. I'm covered in Bruises (there was one failed I.V. start that ended up leaving a huge bruise on my arm, and 2 heperin injections that messed up my arm, and the incision bruises,) but beyond that, I feel fantastic. My stomach isn't swollen out from the cyst anymore, I don't need a cane to walk - 2 days after abdominal surgery, and I walk normally!
I just want to again thank everyone here. The advice in the beginning of this all, the comfort and support as times got dark, and the human compassion that was in every word really touched my soul. I don't think I could have gotten through this without you all, and for that, I will be forever grateful.
I'll be heading back to work in a month (heavy lifting is my job, I want to make sure I'm completely healed!) And then my little saga will be over. 10 months of pain, is just gone. I cannot believe it took this long to get me to this point, but if I learned anything along the way (and I learned a ton, believe me!) It's that you can't give up on yourself. Just because one person pushes you down, and makes you feel worthless, it doesn't mean that you are. Their perception of you means nothing. It's only what you feel about yourself that matters. I know I'm worth it. I'm worth healing, I deserve to feel good, and I believe I'm worth everything in the world!
Again, thank you. Thank you all.
P.S. If anyone ever has any questions about lapro- surgery, feel free to ask!
