I basically participated in a 9 week long interview this summer. I won't go into details for privacy purposes, but I recently found out that there was a lot of shady things happening behind the scenes that neither I nor the other intern in my department were aware of. Neither of us received an offer, 2 of 3 people in a program of almost 30 people- the other reject being a person who turned in only 1 assignment on time, and often skipped or arrived late to the social events. We had no similar problems and our respective CDOs are horrified - I say this only to point out that the way we were treated was not normal and completely unexpected. Normally, this employer has an insanely good % of offers and is well known for that amongst students, like 24/25 got offers last year. Needless to say, I am devastated to the point of finding myself crying without realizing it and having a great deal of difficulty sleeping.
In the last day or so (just one day after I started learning the outcome and all the crazy things that had happened), two people have asked directly and indirectly. Now, these are friends-ish-ish-ish, but not people I would ever confide in or spend time with alone. One asked, "Are you all set to go back to StateWJob after graduation?" Which is basically the indirect way of askign whether you got an offer. luckily that was over an online chat program so I didn't have to worry about my facial expression. I said "Nope, not really sure what I'm going to be doing." And then I excused myself from the conversation.
Then another girl contacted me today through chat (and she is notorious for nosiness, the one from my thread on grades/Todd&Jenny). She had been stopping me in the hallway and kept saying we should hang out. I am polite, but us not having spent time together in a long time is no accident on my part. She didn't bother to be indirect, but after an initial quick line about class goes, "Random, but have you heard from Employer yet?" Sigh. RavensFan, who I told immediately as she is beyond trustworthy, saw and told me that it was ok to just say that "I still don't know what I'm doing right now." And cautioned me against telling this girl as she would drop it into every conversation she has with anyone. I don't know why she does this about anything remotely interesting that she hears, but it is pretty well established that she will. She responds, "Ah ok, I was just curious" - It is none of your business!! is all I could think.
No one else is talking about their results from the summer and I don't want my situation to fill the vacuum of law school gossip. Plus I seriously worry that I might start crying if I talk about it with people- I found out at the beginning of this week which is so incredibly busy that I just haven't had time to process or grieve or get over it, so it is all bottled up until bits and pieces leak out.
My question is, what should I say going forward? I didn't get an offer, I'm not trying to hide it and I couldn't if I wanted to - this is going to become obvious when I'm still job searching a month from now and haven't said anything about being happy about an offer from the summer. I just had hoped that people would connect the dots from me not bringing it up and just not ask (most people seem to be taking this approach). I don't want to talk about it and rehash what happened, I need to move forward. History has taught me that the second girl at least will not let it go - she is impossible to shake when she wants to know something. Any advice? I can't keep saying that I don't know what I'm doing yet. If I say I don't want to talk about it, she'll just run and tell everyone how upset I am. (Yes, I recognize that I've had this same problem with this girl multiple times, but I can't completely avoid interacting with her while we are at school together). I just need some space while I pull myself together.