If you don't mind my asking, what is it that sqwuiks you out?
In my field (EMS) you just get used to it after awhile. If it is smells, you can put some Vicks Vapor Rub or perfume under your nose if the smell is too much for you. If it is sights/sounds, try and not focus on whatever it is and focus on the patients face/chart/monitor and try and block out the sounds, getting a song stuck in your head words too. It helps me that during adrenaline rushes, you tend loose your sense of smell. 
Pulling rectal tubes. I mean seriously? It's like - 10 seconds of my life. But watching her do it was serioiusly bothering me. (this job is at an endoscopy/colonoscopy center, btw) I used to work NICU and could
aspirate gastric contents without a second thought - and probably still could! Cut down for a central line? I'm there. UAC/UVC placement? Let me get the stuff for you. Oomphalocele? Let's get that dressing changed and tidied up so we keep things moist.
I'm trying to decide if it was actually the
rectal tubes themselves that was bothering me, or her handling of it. Example: She pulled the tube, pulled the chuk out from under the patient's backside/wiped it (all with gloves on), touched the curtain to the patient's cubicle to open it, went to the laundry and hazardous waste bins to take off gloves and dispose of everything, then went straight to her chart, picked up her pen and dabbed her finger on her tongue to flip through the pages of the chart.
Anyone else think there's a critical step missing there??
idk - maybe I'm an "over-hand-washer"? There were a lot of times when I would have gone to wash my hands that she simply moved on to the next patient or back to her charting. I know that *I* could do it differently if I wanted to.
The
esophageal dilation in the procedure suite bothered me a bit too - maybe just because I had never seen it done before and had a WHOLE different idea of how it was done than how it is really done (I was thinking angioplasty on a grander scale - NOT!) -
I didn't like seeing the patient struggling against the dilator, even though I know they aren't going to remember it, etc.
::sigh::
Willy Nilly - I don't think broad/specific at the same time sounds ridiculous at all! I think it's part of healthcare. Good advice/reminder!
Ms_Cellany - I'd be that person trying to see what I could see! lol I was surprised to be bothered by the things that I was.
I think maybe I'm just getting old, whiny, and set in my ways.
