Thank you so much.
I feel such a wide range of emotions, I do grieve the loss - I've been very friendly with a lot of the other volunteers - usually within the context of the organization and I did not say goodbye to them. I also love the work we do - and the XMAS project is the big drive and I look forward to it every year.
I also feel angry, that this happened this afternoon, I left in tears ( I am NOT a crier )and I sent in a resignation email. No one even responded to the email about sorry, we will miss you, even we understand etc. NOT a PEEP. They probably want to digest it - but I've worked with these people a long time, a simple acknowledgement would have been nice.
And I feel relief. its changed so much with Circus Monkey and Dee over the last several years, that it was more of a problem than it was worth. I gladly sacrificed a lot of time during XMAS to help our clients. Right now I am looking at a whole in my life .. but I will find ways to fill it fast.
DH has been wonderful, he knows what it meant to me and he saw me stress out this year and then cry today. So I will take the time to spend with him and the boys and do more at church.
Itsd an opportunity to look for another volunteer organization. Community Service is important to me. I have a lot to offer and i am sure that my efforts would be appreciated by another non profit.
I feel guilty becasue I did leave them in a lurch. But that is their own fault for not dealing with situations. I also have to admit, that maybe they thought I was more trouble than I was worth.
But what's done is done and I left in a professional way. Even if they beg me to come back - I won't while the circus monkey and Dee are around.