I'm in a bit of a pickle and I was wondering if you could tell me how to respond tomorrow. Try not to judge me too hard.
I recently finished my undergraduate degree in social work (I'm now technically a graduand and will be a graduate in April!
) and I'm currently looking for work in my specific area of practice. Due to the less desirable economic situation, my choice of jobs is vastly more limited than what it would be if I'd graduated in 2011, so naturally I am doing every thing I can to improve my employment chances. As such, I will be attending a two (2) day Senior First Aid course this week, something which will be looked upon very favourably, especially in my specialty. I booked the course at the start of January.
Now I've written about my classmate Nikki a few times (she's not the one who's had the baby) and although we were quite good friends during our final year, since we've graduated, I've realised that she's more of an acquaintance than a friend and I've started to distance myself from her. The problem is that Nikki is extremely immature in her behaviour and even though she is only two (2) years younger than me (both mid twenties), she acts more like ten (10) years younger. The decision to drop her down to acquaintance occurred after she passed on, and failure to defend me against, a vicious comment that one of her friends made about me (accusing me of cheating on my boyfriend in a restaurant toilet) and also when I realised that due to my current stressful circumstances, having to provide her with near constant, un-reciprocated emotional and psychological support is not conducive to my health.
Dilemma: Nikki and I have arranged to catch up for drinks tomorrow in City and whilst in the course of organising it, I mentioned that I was doing the First Aid Course, which was also in City. Nikki's first response was "Why didn't you ask me?". Well, first off, I never even thought of it as course is over $200 and I'm not responsible for Nikki's learning. But even if I had thought of her, I wouldn't have asked her anyway, although the reasoning is not a very nice reflection of my character
Even though Nikki claims that she wants to study [extremely hard and competitive postgraduate degree], she was a terrible student- lazy, unmotivated and always ready to take the easy way out. She frequently started (and completed) assignments the night before, never studied, and whinged about how the teachers were always persecuting her. She also made a big deal of how I just
got high marks. Never mind that I worked my bottom off every single day, which she knew as she would always bug me for my extra resources, notes and coursework that I sacrificed my social life for! Therefore, I wouldn't have asked to attend the course with me because I know exactly how it would have gone- once again I would have worked as hard as possible to get my certification whilst Nikki would goof up and then expect me to help her out. Also, as I mentioned before, social work jobs are limited. Nikki is my competition for jobs- why would I want to give her the edge over me, especially when I work so hard?
I know I'm bitter and it makes me sound like a horrible person but I also realise that it's my deal and not Nikki's and I don't want to hurt her. I also hope that once we have some distance between us, I can maybe even try to view her as a friend again. So can someone please help me come up with some responses for tomorrow when she asks me why I didn't tell her about the course?