In the last two weeks, my anxiety disorder has taken a disturbing turn*. I've always been able to sort of keep myself together until I can get to a private spot to melt down. Five days ago, out of nowhere, full on, hyperventilating panic attack in public. It happened because of a combination of little tiny, mild triggers piled up in a perfect storm and my nervous system reacted like I was being chased by bears with a bee cannon.
Since then, I'm at a near constant state of borderline tears and anxiety. It's getting better (so slowly), but for my health it means that I have to back out of a lot of commitments because haven't gone back to baseline. Breaking commitments is a huge
deal to me and completely out of character (and another source of stress).
All of my close friends are warned that I'm not able to do any forward planning right now and that I'm not reliable; they are supportive and kind.
There is another event is in two weeks that was planned months ago between me and two other people. It's a very similar situation as the environment I was in when I had the panic attack. The thought of going is literally making me sick to my stomach. Until I can manage day to day without losing my marbles over spilling my coffee or missing the first bus, I'm not fit for polite society...
So, I let my two friends that I can't make it and I told them why. Then one of them pipes up and says, "If Spooky isn't going, I don't know if I'm going." Then the third said, "Well, I'm not going by myself, that's no fun." We all paid for tickets to attend individually (nominal cost, but cost nonetheless).
Is there a rule of etiquette to make it up to them? I was thinking of having them over for dinner once I'm better again.
*Important note: I've got the mental health issue under control and am working with a professional to get this sorted out.