...I can't get the guy I want to figure out that I like him. But apparently I am suddenly the target of all kinds of male attention.
Just last weekend, my uncle brought a friend of his from his "missionary work" (this is a subject about which I get particularly het up, so I'm not going to get into specifics) along to the hospital where my grandma is still staying (nearly a year in and out of hospitals and nursing homes, for the record - 11 months on the 7th of this month!).
Barring the fact that my grandmother has no desire to see anyone outside of her family in her condition (and all of us have been sensitive to that so far), I thought it was fairly indecent of this 20-something kid to clap his eyes on me and not stop staring at me (and blushing when I caught him at it) for the five minutes I was in his presence. Luckily my aunt (my mom's younger sister) decided she had to leave right after my uncle (my mom's older brother) arrived, so I saw my "out" and hitched a ride back home with her. I couldn't stand to be in the same room with him, it was getting too uncomfortable, especially since he wasn't particularly attractive or even close to what I consider my "type." Granted, I kind of reinvent the wheel every time I fall for someone new, but he didn't even come remotely close to what I consider attractive.
The day before that, I had been sitting at a bus shelter in the pouring rain in the same city - I'd had an MRI appointment at the same hospital where my grandma is staying and I had to go to the bank afterward, so, because the counter at the ATM was wet with rain and I had to sign the back of my check, I went to the bus shelter to sign it and fill out the envelope, etc. As I was sitting there, two guys (probably about my age, if not a bit younger) walked by; one paused to give me the once-over and flashed me a big, flirtatious grin. I returned it, but was fairly puzzled - I had gotten caught by surprise, so I had neither hood nor umbrella and looked like a drowned rat. He was kind of cute, but still. I wasn't looking my best at ALL!
This evening, I went to Wal-Mart to get an oil change, and the kid at the automotive counter spent a fair amount of time chatting me up. Granted, said "kid" was 25 - but like the guy in my first example, SO not my type - the first guy was tall, gawky, geeky, obviously awkward in his own skin. The Wal-Mart counter jockey was of the "big and kinda stupid" variety - also not my type. He was nice enough, and even let me leave about 10 items at the counter so I could go and get a couple more things I'd forgotten. And at least he was polite.
But I've started obsessively checking mirrors to make sure I don't have "Please hit on me" tattooed on my forehead. Everywhere I go lately, I'm getting hit on, and it's by all the wrong guys! Help!