He asked me about my son and then mentioned that he hadn't been 'baby hungry' before but the last few years, he's been really feeling the urge. He said he'd been engaged but it hadn't worked out and asked why I was divorced. I gave the extremely abbreviated version (alcoholic and abusive) before I changed the subject. I think it moved to his childhood and I found out that he was born in the same tiny part of Idaho that a great deal of my extended family is from (and I spent most summers until the age of 16 working on my grandparent's farm) and his mom and my dad went to high school together.
I don't mean to sound like I lack confidence. I think I'm pretty not because anyone else tells me but because I think so. I'm capable, competent and able to handle an awful lot of stuff-I work full time, go to school full time, take care of my family, handle friends, write my book, etc etc. So when I say that the younger girls are my 'competition' I should have clarified that while the DVD of my life comes with bonus features, they are 'easier' if that makes any sense. They are all extremely nice and I usually end up mothering the college students away from home for the first time.
Also, I haven't even felt like I've been actively looking. I've started making plans and goals with things that I used to be waiting to do with a husband. I wasn't even expecting this date to go as well as it did so it has all kind of broadsided me.
I'm in the camp of 'if you want to do something bad enough, you'll find a way to do it'. Doesn't matter what it is. The time/money/education will be found to be able to do it. But, I also know how hard it can be to find time away from family that hasn't see you in months. There is no spare time during a four day family reunion in my family so I can understand that he might be overwhelmed with family obligations.
It's all in the 'we'll see' camp. And I swear I don't normally use that many ''s in a normal post!